i. will. not. lose.

Dear ex,

I will not allow you to win. I will not carry the pain (I brought onto myself by staying with you 2 yrs. longer than I should have) with me. It will no longer be a burden to me and a punishment to other males that want to get to know me better. We tried. It did not work. The end. Our issues will not foster through future relationships or through continued resentment and bitterness towards you and other men. No. I am taking my soul and essence back. I will not lose the true me in this.

Thanks for the time we shared, good and bad.

Signed,
A Free - er Me

I hope to live by these words forever...

-- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s --

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Miami 2K9 and Trinbago Carnival 2010, Ah Comin'!!!

I'm prepping hard for these Carnivals! This body is going to be like Bam! Damn! Snap!

Needless to say, I'm going to be a Bad Bitch in my costumes!

Too scared

To love


Edited 1/1/2010 - Fuck that! I am not too scared for shit!

Drama free

Never thought being part of a somewhat extended family would be this difficult. sighs...

Happy 4th Dad...

Making up was easier than I thought it would be ...

Much needed words of advice

"But there's a great book out called Too Soon Old, Too Late Smart. Did you see that? That book says the statute of limitations has expired on all childhood traumas. Get your stuff together and get on with your life, man. Stop whinin' about what's wrong, because everybody's had a rough time, in one way or another."

Quincy Jones

Source

Death

RIP Michael Jackson.. really? Sighs... :(

... one day, you and everyone you know will be dead...

So live your life. ayye aye aye.

Hey Dad :)..Part Two

I wish we were talking...

I want to tell you Happy Father's Day.

six years later,

i'm still crushing on you ... hard



Updated 8.2.09: ehh not so much anymore

LOL!

Please note: although I am not on twitter, I can see everything you tweet. 

And everything your ex tweets back.