Showing posts with label Infidelity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Infidelity. Show all posts

Thursday, March 27, 2008

I stole your significant other!!! I am the SHIT!

May 10, 2007 9:57 PM

It's one thing to see two people in a relationship,

know they are committed (whether they are happy or not)

and know that they have consummated the relationship with a child

yet still desire one of those persons.

It's one thing to act on the desire for that taken person,

aggressively pursue that person,

or positively respond to the advances of the committed person.

It's one thing to knowingly aid in the weakening of a family structure

for your selfish gain and that of the cheater

without thinking about the consequences of your actions.

It's one thing to then conceive a child with this cheater,

this committed person,

this person that has a responsibility to his/her family (whether he/she is mature enough to accept it or not).

BUT

It's another thing,

a despicable,

grotesque,

selfish,

callous,

malicious thing,

to then flaunt this affair, this indiscretion,

as if your actions are heroic,

as if you are a victor,

a winner of some esteemed competition.

When in actuality all you have shown is

your incapacity to experience guilt,

your total disregard for the feelings of others,

your immature sense of extreme entitlement,

your ability to offer "plausible rationalizations", for a behavior that has brought conflict to undeserving third and fourth parties.

So act accordingly,

for it is one thing to participate in this affair to begin with,

but another thing, to further embarrass yourself by feeling proud and boasting when you have conquered nothing.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Why couldn't you be real about it???

Wow it's years later and I still can't believe you cheated on me and lied about it. It is not that I am naive to the cunning, sly, dutty ways of men .. it's just that it was so unnecessary. I was not the possesive type, I was NOT the clingy type, I did not stifle you, and I always said if you want to screw someone else just tell me straight up..say Rx this is not working out and I would bid farewell. I would not have forced you to stay with me so I don't understand y u had to sneak and betray my young trust. Your ass so good at that shit that ppl who interact with you would never suspect that you are so conniving. I mean even my mother didnt see it and she has a great cheatdar.

Now I have moved on and I am so happy but I dont see y u had to move like a pussy.. I dont get it .. even today for the life of you.. you will not admit that you are a weak, dishonest sociopath (shit .. yea I went there).

I heard through the grapevine that you know I would never love anyone like I LOVED you .. well .. newsflash... I will.. I have .. and I think it surpasses that artificial love I had for you .. the love had to be artificial because it was for an artificial being.. u were not real in any aspect of the relationship .. makes me wonder if it was as good as u proclaimed it to be ... lol

On the real though, I do not think that me being cheated on prevents me from trusting, loving, caring and respecting another man. I do believe that you came into my life for a reason and when that reason was fulfilled we separated...

I thank you because you have made me an ever better g/f beacuse I have learned so much about myself and compromising love etc. etc.

Some words of advice to you though .... Grow some balls!

Ok I'm overs now..........

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Best love scene...did I make a fool of you...? ? ?

If you are a love and basketball fan u kno exactly what scene I am referring to..

ME'SHELL NDEGEOCELLO

Fool Of Me
infid
I remember when you filled my heart with joy
Was I blind to the truth just there to fill the space
'Cause now you have no interest in anything I have to say
And I have allowed you to make me feel dumb
What kind of fool am I that you so easily set me aside

You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don't care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me

I want to kiss you
Does she want you with the pain that I do
I smell you in my dreams
But now when we're face to face you won't look me in the eye
No time no friendship no love
Don't say don't touch you I can't touch you no more
Can't touch you any more any more
I don't touch you anymore

You made a fool of me
Tell me why
You say that you don't care but we made love
Tell me why
You made a fool of me you made a fool of me

Saturday, July 30, 2005

When it's cold outside

I need to worry cause I am so cold inside. The impact that a relationship can have on a person without he/she knowing is amazing... at least not until years after and in retrospect he/she realises damn the ending of that relationship really affected my life.

In my case, it was not a positive change...I feel so indifferent towards men (well except this one guy :D). I am so cold to the guys that show interest and I am seeing a pattern-seems like whenever the guy shows interest I find a way to run away-reminds me of my early teen years. Don't get me wrong I don't despise men and I am not a man-hater or anything like that .. quite the contrary .. but I don't know what it is..maybe I am stifling my feelings and emotions..u know numbing my inside... but why ?

O because I was so devastated by the failed relationship and I wish not to feel that type of pain again .. ok makes sense .. and some say blogs don't make any sense .. sense they do make ...
I just had a Dr. Phil moment there .. guess that explains why over the past two years I have been running away from the guys that I am attracted to and showing interest in guys that really have me asking "wha d arse I was thinking" ... see by dealing with the guys that I were not really attracted to I protected myself .. damn why did I do that?! I am so much smarter than that...

So although I was over the guy I was on the defense for a good two years.. hmm.. I know for a fact that after evrything was said and done I became more introverted and in a sense I became timid. Prior to the end of the relationship I never took No for an answer but I think after the terrible breakup I became a lot more accepting...someone said no and I would say ok.. but not anymore I'm bizzack .. the introverted personality stays but the timid behavior is gone - No is not an option.

Now my task is to teach myself not how to love again but how to allow someone to love me again. I have to wake myself up and be emotionally honest - easier said than done but I enjoy the challenge and the opp. for growth.

Well I will start by telling a guy that I am really attracted to that I am attracted to him .. so here goes...

D___ I am attracted to you and have been for a long time...

...sighs

That was tough, hope u were not expecting anything else .. like a full name perhaps :)

When it's cold outside
there's no need to worry cause I am so warm inside...