Relax & Renew

A wave of happiness, and peace is passing. I feel it. I embrace it. For I know this too shall pass. But for the days it's passing I wallow in it. It is that happiness that endures negativity, at times miserable boyfriends, and demanding class schedules. I face them all with a smile because something beautiful is happening inside.

Invictus (Unconquerable) by William Henley

Aug 18, 2007 1:51 AM

Out of the night that covers me

Black as the Pit from pole to pole

I thank whatever gods may be

For my unconquerable soul

In the fell clutch of circumstance

I have not winced or cried aloud

Under the bludgeonings of chance

My head is bloody, but unbowed

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the horror of the shade

And yet the menace of the years

Finds, and shall find, me unafraid

It matters not how strait the gate

How charged with punishments the scroll

I am the master of my fate.

I am the captain of my soul.

Catch me I'm falling

May 20, 2007 11:49 PM

You know that trust fall test - the one where you fall into the hands of the peeps that have your back.

Well ... I did it.

Yip, the self described loner took the big fall test.

I closed my eyes. Opened my hands. And Fell. Backwards.

And not one of you held up your hands to catch me.

Not one.

You all spoke to me on my way down .. sympathizing through your views and concerns

but not one of you held up your hands to catch me.

I may or may not forgive but I will never forget that ... so basically I will never forgive.

I will make an effort to though.

And don't worry about holding up your hands for me in the future...for I will do all I can to never fall into your hands again.

The trust is gone.

I stole your significant other!!! I am the SHIT!

May 10, 2007 9:57 PM

It's one thing to see two people in a relationship,

know they are committed (whether they are happy or not)

and know that they have consummated the relationship with a child

yet still desire one of those persons.

It's one thing to act on the desire for that taken person,

aggressively pursue that person,

or positively respond to the advances of the committed person.

It's one thing to knowingly aid in the weakening of a family structure

for your selfish gain and that of the cheater

without thinking about the consequences of your actions.

It's one thing to then conceive a child with this cheater,

this committed person,

this person that has a responsibility to his/her family (whether he/she is mature enough to accept it or not).

BUT

It's another thing,

a despicable,

grotesque,

selfish,

callous,

malicious thing,

to then flaunt this affair, this indiscretion,

as if your actions are heroic,

as if you are a victor,

a winner of some esteemed competition.

When in actuality all you have shown is

your incapacity to experience guilt,

your total disregard for the feelings of others,

your immature sense of extreme entitlement,

your ability to offer "plausible rationalizations", for a behavior that has brought conflict to undeserving third and fourth parties.

So act accordingly,

for it is one thing to participate in this affair to begin with,

but another thing, to further embarrass yourself by feeling proud and boasting when you have conquered nothing.

Ladies go ahead and Settle

Mar 8, 2007 4:16 PM

Ladies go ahead and settle! We have no choice right. All men are the same right? Right? With that said, all you women out there with men that are unfaithful, do not support you, are terrible fathers, lack motivation to do something/anything productive in life, or liars...hold on to him. Do not let that man go because all men are like that. Do not desire better in your life whatsoever because if for some reason you decide to leave that man you will never find anything better.

Mommy, I know when you read this you will be really upset because you told me "man not running away...they will always be there and the older you are the better they are." But mommy, I can't chance it and wait a couple years because I need a man NOW.. I know you are upset because you said I should learn from those mistakes that you made and avoid them at all cost. But mom I can do what your generation couldnt do.. I can change a man mom. If he cheats I can stay with him long enough so that he is trained not to cheat again mom .. or he grows so weary that he becomes tired of cheating mom.

So.. Ladies go ahead and settle! We have no choice right. ALLL men are the same right? Right? or is it that we are attracted to the wrong kind??

Nahhh .. that's not it! All men are the same! Right?

So settle ........ let me know how it works out for you.

I am an invisible man.

Aug 13, 2006 7:49 PM

No, I am not a spook like those who haunted Edgar Allen Poe; nor am I one of those Hollywood-movie ectoplasms. I am a man of substance, of flesh and bone, fiber and liquids-and I might even be said to possess a mind. I m invisible, understand, simply because people refuse to see me. Like the bodiless heads you see sometimes in circus sideshows, it is as though I have been surrounded by mirrors of hard, distorting glass. When they approach me they see only my surroundings, themselves, or figments of their imagination-indeed, everything and anything except me.

Ralph Ellison from "Invisible Man"

Excerpt from The Song of the Banana Man

Jul 6, 2006 11:13 PM

'So when you see dese ol clothes brown wid stain,

An soaked right through wid de Portlan rain,

Don't cas your eye nor turn your nose,

Don't judge a man by his patchy clothes,

I'm a strong man, a proud man, an I'm free,

Free as dese mountains, free as dis sea,

I know myself, an I know my ways,

An will sing wid pride to de end o my days

Praise God an m'big right han I will live an die a banana man.'

by Evan Jones

A Strong Man is what it takes... by Niki Lasher

May 6, 2006 4:21 PM

i am big
but i am still a woman

i can work long hot hours in the sun
but i am still a woman

i can move my own sofa

i can endure hours of labor without crying

i can take a beating
and give a worthy return

i am strong
but i am still a woman

it takes a strong man
to remember that
when he sees me sweat

when i'm on my knees in the dirt

when i'm moving furniture
because it pays more than cleaning offices

it takes a strong man
to see corn pone quads
(you know, thick with a layer of grits over the meat)
and say
my god my god
what you've blessed me with

sometimes it takes a man
who can lift twice my weight
without straining

sometimes it takes a man
who can fluff and fold
without complaining

either way a strong man is what it takes
if it's gon' be a man at'tall

Robert Frost - The Road Not Taken

Apr 18, 2006 9:22 AM

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

10 Things I Hate About You...

I hate the way you talk to me And the way you cut your hair I hate the way you drive my car I hate it when you stare I hate your big dumb Timberland boots And the way you read my mind I hate you so much that it makes me sick It even makes me rhyme I hate the way you're always right I hate it when you lie I hate it when you make me laugh Even worse when you make me cry I hate the way you're not around And the fact that you didn't call But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. *Taken from the Motion Picture, 10 Things I Hate About You...