I love this man

.... i simply do.

The Big Apple

So after sitting on my couch all day, everyday, I decided to drive over to New York, New York. After 13 hours of driving, and 2 speeding tickets, I am here...

Hopefully this mini vacay will come with some excitement, and drama, without those things my life will be way too normal.

I have some pics of the beautiful mountains I saw going thru PA, I will upload them later.

Links... I'm going to buy a roti.

Kiel

I have to get this out ... bare with me.

Words cannot describe how much I love this boy. I sit here and I don't know how to describe my attachment to this boy. He is my baby, my son, one of my reasons for trying so hard to be 'successful'... I have never ... ever ... felt a love like this before.

He must not be yelled at .. not even by his parents.

He must be nurtured, treasured, constantly told that he is loved.

He must be fed! Now this may seem simple but some mothers .. I swear!

... Most importantly, well besides having the best education available, he should be taken to the doctor if he is sick .. again, simple but some parents.. selfish.

Anyway...

So can you imagine my horror when I got this phone call from my mom a couple hours ago:

Goddess: Hey what's up?
Momz: Hey.............(long frigging pause)...........
Goddess: What Mommy?! *I have zero patience.. whatever*
Momz: Kiel is in the hospital
Goddess: Tears done trickling already... Living in the USA, and having some of your closest family in another country takes a toll you know ... my baby is in the hospital and I cannot be there....
Momz: Yea, hello?
Goddess: Wha happen to him *amazingly calm eh.. just still feeling the tears trickling*
Momz: He has a fever and his mom said he's looking terrible *that's the only time she takes action, when he is at his worst*
Goddess: The fever he has had off and on for a year now!!!!

A Year! Well at this point I'm so mad. If I could have gone home and taken him to a private doctor before I would have, but then again, I'm so tired of being the go to person. We all have responsibilities. If his parents had taken care of their's my 2 year old nephew would have been sound asleep in his bed right now.. not sitting on a bench in a damn hospital!

Do not even get me started about that blasted hospital. It is the only hospital on the island and it sucks! Imagine going to one of the free clinics where you don't need health insurance.. uh huh . then imagine that it is your ONLY option for a medical hospital .. uh huhh.

*Point of reference: It's 11:10PM CST, no one has tended to him yet! They arrived at 8:15PM CS T. I mean jeez at least give him something for the fever.. he's just sitting there, my baby, helpless...he's two for goodness sake!*

So now I wait... wait for the follow up call from Momz...

and hope.. hope that this is the wake up call his parents need. In an attempt to not put all the blame on the mother, I will TRY to put some on the father, but it's hard.. he's a great father in my eyes.. whenever pooh bear is with him he is healthy, vibrant .. but send him to the mother and losh!

To the irresponsible parents out there, Get Your Ish Together! These kids depend on you..

Could it be?

Am I becoming a consistent blogger again?

The last time I posted this often was 2005 (and by this often I mean two days in a row - March entries are really old entries from another blog).

Well I think the answer is yes. BUT this time I would prefer to remain as anonymous as possible. Thank You...

So if anyone is still out there hiii!

I will try to post at least once a day..TRY.

Anyway, yay!

How many licks does it take till u get to the center of the uhhh uh

LOL if JA found my blog and saw this post he would crack up!

This post is dedicated to the ladies out there that:
1. Never had the lick
2. Had it but it wasn't the ish
3. Are tired of begging for it
4. Have a man that refuses to give the lick
5. Wants to try a new "toy "
6. Uhhhh

... You get the point.

So I was watching Talk Sue, one of my fave shows, and a caller mentioned that her man just doesnt handle his business down there... hmmmmm! Anyway, a light bulb went off in my head and I decided to research tongue vibrators (New Venture perhaps?). I honestly was not expecting to find anything but look what we have here ladies *insert sly grin*

1. The Mini - At $44.95, it's a lil pricey I think. I wonder if it feels like the real deal or just flickers like the Rabbit? - HATE the Rabbit by the way..the ears irritate me(TMI). Hopefully the mini has a more realistic tongue motion.

2. The Velvet - Ahh this looks a lil realistic..no? The price is much more desirable. But, I don't know if I like the flicker, it seems more like a bzzzzzz than a flick, no?

3. Compilation of Licking and Sucking Toys - These sites have some really cool stuff.

Well, I didn't see any that I am particularly interested in but I mayyyyy try The Mini.

PS: If it is wack, I'm going to be out $45.00 and really pissed off.

Lame Ass Mutha ...

"Break me off, show me what you got
Cause I don't want, no one minute man"

Note the time of this post! Why the couple above me just start to have sex?! Like creaking bed sex! Oh but I'm not bothered. Why you ask? Because the man is a notorious one minute man! And chick screams like that one minute is da bomb..sighs (now ladies we all know she is faking that ish... oooh ooooh ooooooh oooh .. shut! up!).

Jokes!

Mission Accomplished

I did it!
Well wishers, I did it!
Haters disguised as well wishers(Never thought I had these but as success comes my way I see the true colors of some coming out), I did it!

Today, June 15th, 2008, Goddess received her MBA degree from one of the top five business schools in the USA...#1 if you ask BusinessWeek ;)

I am so ecstatic. I dedicate this degree to my parents, my siblings, and my small network of close friends that have supported me throughout this journey.

Thank you all!

Now, let the rat race begin :)

BTW - I won't mention the haters again on my blog(y'all get your own damn blog). It's not that important. It's a hairflip :D

Relax & Renew

A wave of happiness, and peace is passing. I feel it. I embrace it. For I know this too shall pass. But for the days it's passing I wallow in it. It is that happiness that endures negativity, at times miserable boyfriends, and demanding class schedules. I face them all with a smile because something beautiful is happening inside.

Invictus (Unconquerable) by William Henley

Aug 18, 2007 1:51 AM

Out of the night that covers me

Black as the Pit from pole to pole

I thank whatever gods may be

For my unconquerable soul

In the fell clutch of circumstance

I have not winced or cried aloud

Under the bludgeonings of chance

My head is bloody, but unbowed

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the horror of the shade

And yet the menace of the years

Finds, and shall find, me unafraid

It matters not how strait the gate

How charged with punishments the scroll

I am the master of my fate.

I am the captain of my soul.

Catch me I'm falling

May 20, 2007 11:49 PM

You know that trust fall test - the one where you fall into the hands of the peeps that have your back.

Well ... I did it.

Yip, the self described loner took the big fall test.

I closed my eyes. Opened my hands. And Fell. Backwards.

And not one of you held up your hands to catch me.

Not one.

You all spoke to me on my way down .. sympathizing through your views and concerns

but not one of you held up your hands to catch me.

I may or may not forgive but I will never forget that ... so basically I will never forgive.

I will make an effort to though.

And don't worry about holding up your hands for me in the future...for I will do all I can to never fall into your hands again.

The trust is gone.