Keep it Real

Wise extended the invitation and I am more than happy to...

Keep it Real...

1. If you could be doing what you really want to be doing for a living, what would it be?

I would be the CEO of a Fortune 50 company, and President of an adoption agency.

2. If you could slap the shit out of any famous person, alive or dead, who would it be?

Hmmm.. the Mayor of New Orleans, Ray Nagin, for his lack of leadership during and after Hurricane Katrina. Bush for continuing to read about some damn goat after hearing about the terrorist attacks on the WTC. I might throw a slap on Ashanti, Kobe Bryant, Fergie, Jessica Alba, and Paris Hilton just because I could.

3. What's the dumbest decision you've made in the past 5 years?

Throwing away my rabbit about a year ago.


4. Give up one for a year: (good) sex or (good) music.

Now this answer depends on my relationship status... suppose I am single and I have no choice but to give up good sex. As of right now I will give up good music. I I I need that good sex.

5. Dudes, would you rather have a big dick or a great sense of humor?

Ladies, nice tits & azz or common sense?

Common Sense and some ass.


6. So you've been invited to an all expense paid Blogger Prom in The Bahamas. You're sitting at the bar on the beach. Which blogger do you want to join you for hours of good convo?

Kicker without a doubt. He knows his liquor...and his conversations are not too bad :D

7. Which blogger would you most like to cuddle with on the beach? (and don't defer to your current signif other either. Infidelity won't count against you. Duh.)

My mind has drawn a blank.

8. You're going on a 5 hour road trip...which 5 CDs do you bring?

I will definitely pack:
1. Chromatic ... a reggae compilation CD
2. Lauryn Hill ... The Miseducation
and I will burn:
3. A Hip Hop CD
4. A R and B CD
5. And steal a Soca CD from my girlfriend

9. Would you rather bury your children young or have your children bury you young?

Have them bury me.

10. What's your biggest insecurity?

Failure ... both professional and personal.

11.What's the first blog you read every day...or however often you read them? (And I swear to God, don't be saying mine just cuz I'm the one asking...unless of course you really mean it. lol)

lol .. my own .. I tend to forget what I said the day before.

12. When's the last time you peed your pants?

I really can't remember .. maybe teen years.

13. Which was better, your first kiss or your first pay check?

Hmm .. the first kiss was some years ago and it really wasnt a wow moment .. the first paycheck wasnt too wow either .. so I would go with the greater of the two and say first kiss... but it really wasnt all that.

14. Do you have kids? Want kids?

No I don't. Yes I do

15. You get dropped off at home after the office holiday party by your bitch azz boss that you can't effing stand...you exit the car and he peels out, runs a red light at your corner and rolls up an unsuspecting midget. The next day the midget watch groups are on TV outraged at the heartless hit and run, and are calling for any witnesses to please come fwd...that half dead midget has a family at home waiting on C-mas presents. Would you take $1000 hush money? $500? $100? A six pack?

Well I would stay quiet but hey if you are going to pay me to stay quiet then I might as well make a grand in the process.

16. Live the rest of your life without your eyebrows or your fingernails?

Eyebrows...

17. What makes you angry?

These here things
Failure
Dishonesty esp. in a relationship
Noise :S
Pussies

18. What makes you horny?

This list can go on forever:
Rain
A Shower
Doing the dishes
Standing naked in front of a fill length mirror
Cuddling
Feeling a full erection against my ass at the crack of dawn
Sex
Sweet phone calls from a special someone
Intelligence
Bandy Legs
A man that can "check" me -- now don't start checking me left, right, and center

19. What makes you nervous?

Being left alone in a closed area with someone I have met for the first time ... hate it!
Losing control of any situation
Phone calls from my siblings or mother way too early in the morning
The Po Po

20. What makes you smile?

A call from Mommy
A call from a special someone
Friends yelling at me b/c they think I'm too spoil
Soca
Carnival
Seeing an old friend
Winning
Sex

To every reader of this blog ... consider yourself tagged :D

Pet Peeves... Things that piss me to hell off

In no particular order ... and intended for no particular person .. these are the things that make me itch on the rare occassions that I allow them to...


10. Fellas that find it necessary to touch me in the club .. Hello! you do not have to touch me to ask for an excuse... and do I look like I want to dance .. ahmm with you :D

9. People from Tobago who would ask me my name.. then on the rare occasions that I mention my surname they would say .. Or you rich man! :| I am?

8. I hate when I go home for a little holidays and people that I never associated with before in my life feel the need to walk up to me and start ole talk .. So what you doing in foreign.. You pick up a whitey over dey? :|:| Do I know you?

7. Women with all talk and no action.. Oh if he ever cheats on me I am leaving … I forgave him the 5 times before but if he does it again I am gone this time for real …. Beyatch Yeahhhhh right … Why are you even complaining when you are cheating on him too?!

6. Fellas that just do not get the point… You call I do not respond .. You call again and I do not respond .. hint hint .. gimme a break! A sweet piece of Karma will hit me for this one!

5. Cheaters… Males and Females... I just don’t see the sense... All the sneaking... The back biting and dishonesty... For what! Shit I don’t have the time to waste on all that drama… I rather the simplicity... Just give me a faithful someone I am happy with and let me chill..

4. Mouth Runners .. always talking about what we as a people need to do to change ... ask them what they doing ... People like Haki Madhabuti and Tavis Smiley who preach black unity and the development of the African - American race yet the minute they have the opportunity to foster what they preach they run to a Caucasian owned book distribution company :S

3. People that feel the need to tell you what they think you should do without you asking.. Did I ask you for your opinion ? Nah did I ?

2. Return my frigging calls....If you see a missed call on your phone damnit return the call..How the hell can you see that I called you and not call me back man! And don't say you didnt see it! .. you have frigging Caller ID!!!!

1. Bond Breakers ... Your word is your bond.. Do not tell me you are going to do something then do the exact opposite or nothing at all .. worse yet if you act like you never said you were going to do it in the first place steupsssssssssssss

Entertainment Legends

Oprah really got me this time.... well she came close.. I was all hyped for this Legend Ball up until about 5 minutes before it started. Well since I had nothing better to do I watched it anyways and like an old granny I was arguing all thru it..

Why only legendary entertainers? .. what happen to business women, doctors, lawyers, journalists .. we ARE legends in other fields too u kno .. we can do more than just entertain.

But then again it's not MY ball so let me hush my crutch and dress for work...

The End of the Mind Games

Watch nah... I'm seeing a very bad trend developing... my posts are frequently about relationships.. I refuse to play the role of the whining girl who is totally enveloped in her relationship that she thinks about nothing else. .. Nah but I have to vent about this one thing real quick.

I'm falling and I'm falling deep too man... momzie always told me I can't control who I love.. but I always thought that with the power of my mind I can decide how much I love the person .. well watch nah .. that mind power thing not working man... I guess after a while the games have to end .. but they are not games .. they are survival tactics! Shit! Heartbreak not nice you know!

Steupssss.. well watch nah ah done... ah done with the games .. the survival tactics.. the walls are down and I can't pretend that they are still up...

I love him with everything in me despite all my efforts not to...

Cyah handle d negative vibes

Why some people so bloody negative. They have NOTHING POSITIVE to say ... ah mean nothingggg. I have a new approach to that nonsense - I am saying bluntly that I am not interested in hearing what you have to say.

Mih cyah deal with d negativity!!! I know it makes you feel better about yourself to talk and think negatively about others but enough is shitting enough.

Tek yuh story and give somebody else!

Mih nah want fi hearrr!

Another Friday!

Hmmm ... another Friday night .. chilling ... in mih bed! with my baby Kymani!

Amazingly, my longest relationship with any man has been with Kymani - 3 years and going strong baby!

Ladies let me tell you about this man ... first and foremost he loves to cuddle .. keeper right?! He is extremely quiet .. which is quite frustrating at times but hey a relationship is about compromise right. Our relationship never goes further than the bedroom well the bed actually but hey I ain't complaining. He is a wonderful listener .. ah mean he doh even respond .. he just flicking listens!!

Steups... another Friday night .. chilling ... in mih bed! with mih damn teddy bear! buh hey I aint complaining!

Fadderrr !!

My co-worker is annoying the SHIT out of me!!!

Goodbye my lover?

Every goodbye... every talk to you later... the end of every phone call frustrates me.
When coming to relationships- of every kind- my solution to issues is to leave- to call it quits- to walk away from the issues. However, I am tired of running at the sight of every issue but how do I stay and cope with it. I always feel like I have something more important to do. Right now... at this very moment I am torn... I dont know what the hell to do but I dont want to say goodbye but my habitual behaviour is terrorizing me - poking me - telling me to run and dont look back...sighs

I am so hollow baby .. I am so hollow .. I am so hollow!

I think what adds to my frustration is that I must always appear strong and in control - how dare I appear vulnerable. This damn curse is preventing me from breaking down to you and saying I cant take it anymore. How would you know how this is affecting me if I cant tell you that on more than one occasions I have broken down. A woman should be strong .. hold down the fort right ?..right ? no signs of weakness right ? right ... right moms? ... sighs

One day I will crack and it wont be pretty. I have had to be strong from the age of 11--but come on a person can be strong, in control, and cry. Crying is not synonomous with weakness ... yet I cannot show you that it burns me. The very thing about me that attracts you is my doom... my burden.

I'm so I'm so hollow

I cant walk away..the heart isnt ready. I think I will just tell you that I hate having to say goodbye. I don't want to talk on the phone .. I want to cuddle ! I always want to cuddle

this journey... life eh boy... nothing I can't handle man

Why couldn't you be real about it???

Wow it's years later and I still can't believe you cheated on me and lied about it. It is not that I am naive to the cunning, sly, dutty ways of men .. it's just that it was so unnecessary. I was not the possesive type, I was NOT the clingy type, I did not stifle you, and I always said if you want to screw someone else just tell me straight up..say Rx this is not working out and I would bid farewell. I would not have forced you to stay with me so I don't understand y u had to sneak and betray my young trust. Your ass so good at that shit that ppl who interact with you would never suspect that you are so conniving. I mean even my mother didnt see it and she has a great cheatdar.

Now I have moved on and I am so happy but I dont see y u had to move like a pussy.. I dont get it .. even today for the life of you.. you will not admit that you are a weak, dishonest sociopath (shit .. yea I went there).

I heard through the grapevine that you know I would never love anyone like I LOVED you .. well .. newsflash... I will.. I have .. and I think it surpasses that artificial love I had for you .. the love had to be artificial because it was for an artificial being.. u were not real in any aspect of the relationship .. makes me wonder if it was as good as u proclaimed it to be ... lol

On the real though, I do not think that me being cheated on prevents me from trusting, loving, caring and respecting another man. I do believe that you came into my life for a reason and when that reason was fulfilled we separated...

I thank you because you have made me an ever better g/f beacuse I have learned so much about myself and compromising love etc. etc.

Some words of advice to you though .... Grow some balls!

Ok I'm overs now..........

E-motional Roller Coaster

Loving you aint nothing .......... easy.

U are a challenge.. which is what really keeps me interested but I do have my draining days when all I need is simplicity...

O why the delay in posting you ask. . .

-Applied for University of Chicago GSB and got in :D
-Started a new job with a managerial position so .. work work work
-Was doing a lot of reading especially on Spiritual Unions and spiritual growth as a woman.. society has shaped me to expect certain things in all relationships and I just needed to purge myself of these expectations so that I could live my life the way I, Numero Uno, feel.


So between these three things... the last thing on my mind was posting. I do have a certain someone in my life too but he in no way demands too much of my time. The beauty of it is that we have managed to remain two separate individuals and I love that!!! you know finally a male someone who understands and agrees with my philosophy on relationships.

Anyway, I am looking forward to mid 2006 and the great things in store for my life.

I will keep in touch more often but until then .. love yourself.. respect yourself.. and live your life the way you feel... cuz when you are gone that's it!

Stay Tuned for my next post The Irony of The Covenant with Black America